Even if it is, I’ll still keep taking this stuff. As long as I have it, I guess I can’t care about how you treat me when you do it.
Yeah, I am afraid that you’ll get hooked on it like I did; the reason why that scares me is that I most likely will lose access to it very soon, yet you’ll have constant (free) access to it for 3 months up to a year and 3 months. Yeah, I’ve basically done it constantly for the past 3 months, but I still had a week here and there (or at least a few days each week) where I didn’t have any. I don’t want you to end up doing it every single day for over a year. I’m not comfortable with that idea.
Of course, if my source weren’t moving away, I’d probably keep doing it for that long, too.
Who knows. I most likely am being selfish about it. I’m afraid most of all that your emotions will turn off again, but in retrospect I don’t think it was the subutex at all that made your emotions turn off. It helps to keep your emotions turned off, like it does for me (had i had it during our recent bumpy road, I probably would have been far less psychotic about the whole thing) but I don’t think it alone turned your emotions off. You’ve turned them off before, plenty of times. I have no real reason to be nervous.
I’m sorry. You can take it, too. I’m sorry for being so selfish.
