i am closer to suicide than i ever have been
even thinking about how my family will be horrified when they find me doesn’t make the option seem any less bad than living my whole life without me in your heart as your one and only
i just wish you’d stop avoiding me tonight so that i know whether or not to start steeling my nerve to go ahead and do it
i can’t tell you that i want to do it because then you’ll think it’s a stupid empty threat and a way to guilt-trip you
