January 2012
277 posts
joshishollywood:
What if you made the trade for Shinigami eyes and it turned out that all they do is let you see when someone’s next bowel movement will be
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I am captivated by the crimson sky, by the blue moon mired in the conterfeit dream that was buried against my will falling, turning, falling, to the depths of degredation, clumsily I am captivated by the crimson sky, by the blue moon in your blue moon I am brought into relief beautifully my insides on display Blue & Die well, if I can be with you forever I’m happy gently I grip your hand...
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The dance holds together this little girl
As she waits for the morning The best friend
She has no one to wave to anymore The good old days are so dear The ashes are like flower petals that rise up to the sky Say good bye as we torch the fire to the victims stacked up The ashes are like flower petals that rise up to the sky Lets put on a dress and dance I gave her my endless love
But she cries...
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angels-and-angles:
Why the friendzone is bullshit and self-proclaimed “nice guys” are misogynists
Wow, accidentally deleted my original post. Reblogging so I can keep it in my archives.
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As defined by urban dictionary, the friendzone is…
“When you are expected to support a girl you really like while she searches for a smarter, richer, and more handsome boyfriend. There is little you can do...
“He was prisoned in thought.
Memory, like a horrible malady, was eating his soul...”
– The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde (via dawn29
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"Fryolator"?
I just heard that word.
It is a word.
A la Wikipedia, is that a *ehem* portmanteau of “fry” and “violator”? It had better be.
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I have been having an anxiety attack for the past...
My mood is just fine, I’m just ridiculously frustrated because I can’t breathe. No matter how deep the breaths are that I take, it doesn’t work. My arms are going numb. My heart won’t calm down.
I’m so sorry that I ever got frustrated when Asmond couldn’t talk because of his anxiety attacks, or was rude with me because of them. I understand so well. I...
My phone is working again!
I feel so fucking depressed all of a sudden.
Then again, I’ve been off of my medication for two days. Luckily, I have some, and I’ll take it soon…
But really. I wish you’d move back here… I’m so sorry for the way I treated you… Bianca talked about it last night, that I was an asshole to you the whole time you lived here, as if I always looked like I didn’t want to be around you, and how fucked...
I just saw a picture of the remains of someone's...
videoflesh:
fleursdumal:
My immediate thought was, “Isn’t it amazing how even the people you think are the most beautiful people in the world, inside and out, the deepest, most interesting people… all would end up the same in any kind of incident like that?”
Say, a car crash. With the person you love the most in the world.
You survive, but the person you love so much, the person who has so...
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Just got my blood test back from the doctor.
Yeah, the one I got a fucking month ago. Also annoyed because the doctor has illegible handwriting.
Anyway, it says my ALT levels are “slightly elevated” in my liver test. He also wrote a sentence that reads like this: “Hepatitis B antibody was positive relative to hep…..” where “…..” is a bunch of scribbles.
However, the letter form sent to me...
This is strange and overwhelming.
Try as I might, I cannot stop intense flashes of extreme and disgusting mutilation and torture of humans at the hands of other humans or at the workings of industrial machinery. Or trains, or automobiles, etc. I just keep thinking of the chaos of viscera caused by such sadistic events as the torture that can be inflicted by humans driven to feral means by the insurmountable pressure of survival in...
I just saw a picture of the remains of someone's...
My immediate thought was, “Isn’t it amazing how even the people you think are the most beautiful people in the world, inside and out, the deepest, most interesting people… all would end up the same in any kind of incident like that?”
Say, a car crash. With the person you love the most in the world.
You survive, but the person you love so much, the person who has so much...
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New Meshuggah album coming out.
Here’s why I’m excited, and it’s called song titles:
1.”I Am Colossus”
2.”The Demon’s Name Is Surveillance”
3.”Do Not Look Down”
4.”Behind the Sun”
5.”The Hurt That Finds You First”
6.”Marrow”
7.”Break Those Bones Whose Sinews Gave It Motion”
8.”Swarm”...
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My phone fell in the toilet.
It doesn’t work now. I have it in a ziploc bag with rice to absorb moisture.
It makes me horrendously sad that I can’t contact you whenever I want or need to.
I just want to talk to you… and then this happens. I’m just glad I got home before my grandparents got up so that I didn’t have to hear my grandmother’s bitching about how I should text her if I’m...
ukeking:
if you say come at me bro
i’ll definitely come at you
come at you with a bazooka to blow off your head
then i’ll use your blood as hand soap
(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
I prefer the lesser-known “come on me bro”.
Which, strangely enough, also looks like this: (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧
Also, blood is terrible hand soap. That idea wouldn’t work at all! Silly billy. Come on me,...
The only masculine thought I’ve ever had about you is going insane with rage over the thought of you letting some other person fuck you.
You have no idea at all how much that idea pisses me off.
You never will know how bad it is to me. I know it won’t happen, but I couldn’t help but think about it after you lost your love for me.
I’m glad it’s back.
Anonymous asked: ..You shouldn't say sweet things like that.. It makes me even more nervous about telling you who I am. I have left you messages off and on, but I'm not sure if it's been longer than Asmond, however.. although.. perhaps this may have been a bad time to contact you. And for that, I apologize.
Perhaps this would be easier to deal with if I...
This is very sudden.
Oppressively sudden.
I just want to know exactly what all of your thoughts are that drove you to this decision, because I don’t believe that what you’ve told me could be all there is to it. “You’ve done a lot of good things for me, but you’ve also done a lot of bad things.” So? I can say the same of you. One can say the same of all...
You must have forced yourself not to love me...
You’re the one who made the first move. You’re the one who was so obsessed with me that you wanted to eat me. You’re the one who said you’d kill me if I left you. You’re the one who owned me. You’re the one who drove all of those obsessive emotions and awakened mine, and you’re the one who all of a sudden doesn’t feel any of those feelings anymore?
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These feelings are familiar.
They have not been in working order for over three years.
The anger I feel when I know that some filthy, degenerate simian is going to get its hands on you someday, running over that same smooth skin that was mine to touch not even a full month ago.
The rejection I feel when seeing you carrying on with your daily business as if I don’t exist.
The solitude I feel when I know I will never...
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You've come back to me.
I learned how awful of a person I am in the process, but that’s okay. You’ve forgiven me, and I’ve already improved on most of it a while ago—but the problems I was causing that drove you away are what I’m fixing now. No more self-imposed guilt for bullshit reasons. No more talking shit about myself in hopes of getting attention for it. I’m apparently a good and...
This feels like one big fucking bad dream.
This is insane.
You changed your facebook email AND password on Wednesday?
Why did you change it without telling me? Again?
You… haven’t trusted me for a while, have you?
Of course, now my mind wanders into fantasy.
Suppose I became proficient with machines, and crafting traps.
I could find you in Fort Myers. Not by the address of where you live, but by where you end up getting a job. I could tranquilize you and kidnap you, and take you to a place where I’ve built this contraption: I’d bind you to a chair with a shotgun affixed in front of it, facing...
If I’m going to end up dying because of this, I need to take you with me.
But if I kill you before I kill myself, then you’ll have no way of knowing that I ended my life as well… you’d die thinking that I was killing you out of pure rage and nothing else.
Really, I would be killing you to do you a favor, so that you wouldn’t have to live your life with my suicide...
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“Just because you’ve changed where you are, doesn’t mean you’ve...”
now that i fucked everything up you're never going...
i am closer to suicide than i ever have been
even thinking about how my family will be horrified when they find me doesn’t make the option seem any less bad than living my whole life without me in your heart as your one and only
i just wish you’d stop avoiding me tonight so that i know whether or not to start steeling my nerve to go ahead and do it
i can’t tell you that i want...
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